Simply because I’m literally waiting for God to lead me to my next step. I’ve been focusing on letting go of the reigns and for the Lord to step in and take over. Now let’s not get “waiting” and being “lazy” confused. These are the NOT the same thing. I have been super productive and really leaning into family, creativity, and my true passions. Making sure I’m present in the time with my son and spending quality time with my husband. Making sure to set aside weekends in the month to visit family and friends. I figured that if the Lord has given me this time, I may as well use it for all good purposes. I’ve even been setting aside time to serve and volunteer for some opportunities. By doing these things and being grateful for the blessings in my life, I feel that God can lead me into my next steps.
I have been so blessed to be able to have this time “off” and I’m loving every second of it. I’m starting to realize that I am learning more and more about who I am. It’s funny. When you get to a certain age you think you know who you are, as if you have everything figured out. But Nope! Everyday, it’s like you find out something new about yourself. It’s so interesting to me. I’m starting to find out about things I’ve really wanted to do, some fears I didn’t know I had, and found new things that I love. I seriously am loving rediscovering myself.
Never take the “waiting season” for granted. Get to know yourself. Get to know who God created you to be. You might just be surprised at the passions you never thought you had and the courage to do things you never thought you could do.
I’ve been writing songs again, stumbling upon new artists and albums, falling in love with new songs, and getting involved with different projects. It’s so exciting and exhilarating. It’s like I’m really “living”, not just “existing”. I used to be so caught caught up in just work, being a mom and being a wife in NYC, that’s it. Non stop routine of the same thing over and over again. I forgot what made me, ME. I’m now tuning back into Me and who Lauren Burrows is.