“Two roads diverged in a yellow wood / and sorry I could not travel both / and be one traveler, long I stood…” -Robert Frost
We make hundreds of choices every single day. Even without realizing it, we decide between two things time after time. Life is full of choices.
The simple ones : what to wear? What movie to see? What to eat? Which store to go to?
But there there’s the big ones — which school to attend? Where to go to church? When to date? Who to marry? What kind of house or car to buy? How to discipline your children?
By now, you know I never write about something I can’t relate to. So it’s no secret that the spark for this blog is that I’m dealing with a few choices of my own right now. Some too personal to share.
I can honestly relate to Mr. Frost in his poem…. Two roads…. And I cannot take both… So I stood and stared at the two to weigh my options.
I know where he’s coming from. And it’s hardly a fun place to find yourself. Knowing that your choice holds your future. Knowing that if you mess up and take the wrong road, you could ruin your life. Or even worse — staring at a path for so long, absolutely sure that it’s the right one, and when you get ready to take it, you realize you may have been wrong all along.
It’s hard. But then again, where did we get off thinking life and responsibilities were supposed to be easy?
So. I find myself here. Standing at the fork in the road. With several choices and no idea which to choose.
So what do I do?
Well… I could keep standing at the fork and hoping one path just magically disappears. But I highly doubt that’ll happen. So…..
First — I pray. “Prayer is often used as the last resort when God always intended it to be the first line of defense.” -Oswald Chambers
I will NEVER solve any problem on my own. I will never find the answers on my own. If I haven’t prayed about it as much as I’ve talked about it, I’m doing something wrong. My only hope to finding out which path to walk on is when i seek Jesus and His guidance with all my heart.
Second — I read His word.
Because when I’m standing at a fork, the one thing I want more than anything else is wisdom. And wisdom is found in the pages of His book. When you ask for His wisdom, you find incredible scriptures like this one I discovered last night:
“This is what The Lord says…. Stand at the crossroads and look — ask where the good way is and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls.” Jeremiah 6:16 (NIV)
It’s safe to say I won’t be finding any rest for my soul until I figure all this out. Because if you know me, you know I have to have everything planned out before I can relax.
But you know… It’s funny.
NONE of it is in my control.
That’s both the scariest and the most comforting thing to know.
Scary? Because I’m human. I want control and I want to know what’s going on. I get anxious when something this important to me and my life is out of my control.
Comforting? Even more so. Because again, I’m human. And I want things done my way. But my ways are not God’s ways. And I’m sure thankful for that because His are much better.
So as I stand at my crossroads, I pray and wait. Because sometimes that’s all you can do. I pray and wait… I wait for the day I can finally finish the poem —
“….I took the one less traveled by / and it has made all the difference.”
I don’t know which road to take. But I know He knows everything. And as long as I trust in Him, He won’t let me fall.